Happyflowergirl,

When I first started seeing my T about 3 1/2 years ago I didn't cry either.
I had learned never to cry as a child because if I did , the wrath would come down even harder,

After a few months with my T, I found myself crying right after our sessions.
Then I started allowing myself to cry just a little bit in front of him, but I fought myself not to.
I didn't know how to regulate crying, it felt out of control to me.
When I stopped fighting it I found that I could cry without self destructing and get relief from it.

I think it is good that you can cry now. I cried reading your post because I understand all the emotion that needs to come out so you can heal. Don't fight the urge to cry before your session. Maybe your heart is learning to regulate crying like mine did.
Take care.
Twinks