I messaged my primary care doctor and asked for a short-term appetite suppressant. She refused.

This is absurd. I have been prescribed appetite suppressants in the past and they were very effective and I never got dependent.

I was kind of upset but I got over it.

I got angry enough that I just vow not to mini-binge.

Sent my doctor a message and joked that I would have to start smoking. It was just a joke. But I remember that when I was young that's how my friends and I curbed our appetites. We got thin by smoking cigarettes like demons.

Now it is just all around harder. I will have to drink a lot more water.