Well, I had an assessment by a psychiatrist and he said in his opinion I did not have a personality disorder but, just as you said, I had situational depression. So BINGO, there you go being your usual insightful self.

Social isolation can cause a lot of crazy thoughts, I think, and I believe it is the main culprit.


It seems crazy that I think I have a dependent personality when I have run my own life for years. When I see people on their phones at the supermarket it shocks me. Like what, people can't shop alone any more, like people have to shop as a team for food?


I do everything alone...and despite my fears staying afloat. I paid off all my credit cards and a personal bank loan last year. I am never late with rent or bills, the miracles of a great affordable mechanic keep my 25 year old truck running for now, I cleaned up my physical life and literally have no bad habits. I don't define myself by others. I am always aware that married people start every other sentence with, "My husband..." or "My wife..." Sheez. I am pretty happy I to be an "I" and not a "we"...in life.

What I hate the most is social isolation. It seems unnatural. I was in the Peace Corps and lived on a South Pacific Island...very tribal with small villages. There was a rule there that no one was allowed to live alone. They believed (rightly so) that it was bad for one's health. When teens wanted independence they would build a house for several teens (same sex) to live together...sort of like a dorm. Of course all elders lived within large family units.

IDK. I am still going to look up that link you threw out because I am convinced I have this disorder.


Thank you. Hope you are having a good week.