Hmmm, yeah, I have read through this before. I know I have been in therapy before when they said for insurance purposes they would put down adjustment disorder.

It is confusing because I have a great deal of anxiety but since it is unmedicated either legally or illegal...it is pretty raw. I am a pretty high-strung person. I have always been anxious and now my son tells me he also has generalized anxiety. My ex the genius boy was so high-strung I called him Racehorse.

Could it be that situations cause one's weaknesses to increase? I grew up with five siblings in a huge house with constant visitors, cousins staying for summer etc. In other words...I grew up in a family commune. I don't think I was every alone...ever...until I was about 25.

I don't have problems with small daily decisions...but I do have problems with large decisions. Like family and friends all say I should move to another state because my state is getting crowded and expensive. Well, moving is something that causes me so much anxiety. I have done two inter-state moves on my own but it was the hardest thing I have ever done.

I am really not good at making decisions, and I have a difficult time in the professional world. So...I am pretty confused. People always seem to think I am stronger...than I feel I am.

It's mostly anxiety about money. If I won the lottery I think I would buy a house, get a dog, and a new bike and probably no one would ever hear from me. I would travel and go out to dinner by myself. To me to not have money worries would be heaven on earth.