I've been seeing my T weekly for over a year now; at first was very hard to talk with her. Over time I began to open up a bit more which was good.

However, in late January there was an issue which caused a rupture between us (you may have seen on someone else's thread). Well she "talked" (yelled) at me for an entire hour one day totally taking me by surprise and causing me to sob the whole time (I hate to cry).

It was because she had taken a phone call from the front desk from a person who was there waiting to change or make an appointment right in the middle of my session! She took the call and talked for about 5-8 minutes, while I forgot what I was saying and was thrown off so that I lost more valuable time! I called her later and left a message on her answering machine that I was upset about the phone call's nature (appointment) and I felt my time was not respected, etc.

Well that was what set her off to berate me for an entire session, and believe me I don't cry easily but I sobbed. She did not stop. She said I had left other messages that were "angry" etc. and that it "hindered her ability to work well with me". It took me a long time but I finally decided maybe I should leave for a Christian Bible based therapist (of which I found there are none in the area I live in - New England. I mentioned it to her last week that I was thinking of leaving therapy for one thing because I could not seem to get past that rupture that occurred when she lit into me. I understand that the session is all about the PATIENT, not the therapist, but she personalized it I guess.

Well she assured me that the time would be open and to call and leave her a message if I was coming in this week. I was able to work through the anger I felt with her during the next several days and was looking forward to going back to work on things. I called and left the message I'd be there.

Well when I got there she immediately seem cold and remote and took me into her office. She informed me that she could no longer be my therapist and she felt it was in my "best interest". That she had discussed my case with her boss, a psychiatrist, and my psychiatrist who is the director of the clinic, everyone's boss. They agreed. She was not gentle about it; she seemed angry still and I sat there in shock. Since there was nothing more, after seeing this woman for over a year, I just got up and walked out the door!

I've been in touch with my psychiatrist and will go to see her as she is still in charge of my meds. I am crushed, feeling totally rejected and upset. Yet this may be for the best as she seems unable to contain her anger. What do you all think? I did like her. She was kind and caring especially when I first went to her for many months. This was a new side of her that came out as I said, in January.

Confused and dismayed but my hope is in the Lord and I am trusting that this was His will for me, as I prayed about this with several women from my church the day before. I feel it is no coincidence.

Sorry this so long!
Olivia