I would like to die young for the simple reason that I just can't see myself living to an old age- not in this state anyway.

I just don't have nothing to live for, and I almost see it as foolish to carry on living when it seems like I have nothing

and I'm talking big things.. I'm not talking the things so many people take for granted- heat, food, shelter, etc, I'm talking life purpose- that's something that completely eludes me

I'd hate to live to 50 and 60, look back on my life and think well why did I bother

may as well just get it over with then I don't have to face my biggist fear- that's failiure at life