I'm so sorry you're struggling, Goals2017 It's hard to cope and get motivated when you have MI. I can relate to your struggles. I'm sure many others can relate, too. I'd advice to start with something simple (eating breakfast, taking a shower) and see how it goes from there. Take baby steps. I also think it would be useful to have some coping skills to help you during these episodes. Do you see a therapist? I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this