I let my husband read the letter. He said "wow", I don't yet know if we're going in together. I think it's up to him. I'd like him with me to back up that I'm not going to do anything. That thoughts are just that thoughts. I'm worried she'll up my zyprexa and want me to go IOP. I'm okay with lamictal raised or celexa added but I don't want to gain more weight. It's getting hard for me to walk already.

I'm the first appointment so it'll look bad. Maybe she'll take into account the atmosphere of the house.