{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Jenn}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I know where you're coming from. Not too long ago my EX got really sick and most of us thought he was going to die. I felt so bad for him I even went to see him in the hospital. That's when I realized he hadn't changed one bit. It eased my conscience and I stopped worrying about him, except for his soul. We won't go into that, though.

Hubby was with me all they way. He even took me shopping to get the old fart some pjs to cover his body in the hospital. Not once did I feel guilty. I know myself and hubby knows me. I could do what I felt I had to do if not so much for my EX, then for me. My conscience is clear.

My opinion is that Perna is right. You're mourning what could have been for your his kids. Maybe he'll have time to find some peace. If not, there's nothing you can do about it.

No guilt, okay? It's not your burden to carry, Sweetheart.