I thought yesterday might have been a bad day, but I think I'm right about the depression. I had suicidal thoughts yesterday night that wouldn't go away. They're not existent now, but who's to say they won't come back today or tonight?

I hate this. I was doing so well on my medication... until now.

I can't increase any doses except Lexapro because I'm all maxed out on the others, but my pdoc doesn't like the idea of antidepressants. So, I'd have to get a complete change, which I don't want. I'd rather just cope with what I've got now and wait for it to go away. I don't want a fatty, sleepy med. Rexti and abilify are the only two that haven't made me sleepy, but abilify didn't work.