I agree with Miguel'smom -- sounds like mixed.

Can you join a support group like DBSA or NAMI?

If you can't afford a therapist, can you find one with a sliding scale? If you're near a university, you can try one of their therapists since they're "in training," which will make costs lower or free (if they're doing a research study and agree to give you free therapy). Of course, there's no guarantee they'll be good, but it's worth looking into IMO.

Also, there are community mental health services that offer free therapy if you're eligible. You'll have to check with your local towns/cities first, though.