I'm sat at in the back row the back of my pharmacology class, and just counting down the time.Weve been here for the past two hours and it's a four hour class.
R said he would write to me on tuesday- so far he hasn't. I sent him the following email yesterday. I don't think he will even reply to be honest, and that makes me so mad at him. I just find the waiting so humiliating. He can't say I didn't give him a chance.
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I’m sorry for acting out and skipping session last week, I really am.
I had this dream about you after I sent my email dated the 20th. Of you in your living room with my favourite chair and piles of old books on the floor, making videos and taking photographs of your daughter, of her sitting in your lap and laughing and I woke up feeling so stupidly jealous.
I was ashamed of being jealous of everything: your family, of bringing you squashed cake, your other clients, of being so needy, the cousin stuff, the way I feel about you.
I know I my email dated the 20th was hostile, but I wanted just wanted you to offer me an extra session even though I know I didn’t directly ask for that. I don’t feel safe when I don’t have rules and I don’t know what to expect. I just wanted a reply and I felt stupid just waiting around for a reply which I didn’t get.
If you don’t want to work with me anymore I would appreciate a referral.
S
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