To the posters prior on this thread, I’m curious, were you given different diagnoses from different doctors? Because that is what happened with me. I’m not sure what illnesses or disorder I have, if any, but got diagnosed PTSD, MDD, borderline traits and EDD.

I cry all the time because I’m deeply unhappy in my marriage.
I stay in toxic marriage because I have low self esteem and confidence. Maybe I am conditioned for the toxic relationship. So, perhaps that’s codependent.
I’ll accept being labeled anything; narcissist, borderline, histrionic, even somewhat antisocial.
I’ve never broken laws, can be responsible, hurt no one but myself really.
I’m sure I have OCD, as I have a nervous habit of repetitive things.
I’m sure I have anxiety.
I think I have ADHD.
I am sure I don’t have schizophrenia because I don’t hear voices.
I am not paranoid.
I’m probably mostly neurotic.

As you can see I’ve given this quite a lot of thought. I ruminate. I’m completely preoccupied with this issue and with myself. So there’s a clue that I do have a disorder. However, I’ve been put through the ringer by the people who are my closest relationships.

I’m really sure I’m exhausted!