As a rather superficial but perhaps interesting update, based on other recent posts on the forum. Maybe one of my main issues is what they describe as "schiziod personality". It is not for the fist time I am considering it but definitely a reminder. I have been reading up on schizoid again and, 100% honestly, there is very little little to none that I don't identify. That schizoid baseline pattern, streaked with occasional mood episodes of mania maybe.