Thanks I was ready to go cry and beat myself up for how badly I did after, but my PI talked to me right after to tell me he was impressed and "proud of me"
I was so sure he was going to be disappointed in me.

Writing is a good thing long term because it helps me process instead of ignoring things, but in the short term it definitely brings out a lot of strong feelings and makes it more intense. It was writing that started bringing all this stuff to the surface over the last few months.
Running triggers migraines for me... Think that would count as a form of SH?:P
I go out for "mindful" cigarette breaks when I need to collect myself lol. I could probably do the grounding mindfulness thing without the cigarettes, but there are much worse ways I could be coping too.

24 hours until therapy now.