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Originally Posted by 502041
However, now i kinda feel like i am asking too much or maybe this is oversharing? Basically she responded 'i am interested in what makes you want to share them'. It kinda made me feel dirty I suppose, like i was asking for too much intimacy. The reasons i want to share them are mainly because i am trying to trust her more, the documents feel like a heavily load if I am honest and they do feel intimate, but i feel alone in reading them and having them to myself.
Is this approiate? Is me asking this and wanting to share this appropriate?
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I haven't shared documents, but I have told my T about the scaring that is medically documented that proves I was abused as a child. Perhaps it is like the childhood photographs I shared with T, bringing them in. It was really helpful and validating to hear what his perceptions were based on them-- some of which were the same as mine (they showed what I thought), but he also had a deeper reaction to them that I wouldn't have thought of if I hadn't brought them in. So his reaction to them helped me learn something I wouldn't have.
IMO opinion your desire to share them with your T is appropriate and brave. Intimacy in therapy is a good thing, and being alone with evidence about how bad things were as a child -- in my version of what I think you are feeling-- is difficult. I think it will help you in all the ways you identify, and I encourage you to do it.