Thank you, MickeyCheeky.

I know I'm perhaps being annoying with this topic. I keep complaining about something that seems to be clear or unimportant to everyone else. I really have no idea where to look for help or support. This is causing me real pain. My T isn't the right person to talk about this. She isn't really knowledgeable in this area and whenever we talk I either have to explain basic definitions (wasting time) or she tries to push me into atheism or new age.


I'm more oriented towards mystical Christianity but in an unorthodox way and I'm not too sure about that, either I'm not even allowed to talk about it here!


It got worse again now when Christmas is coming and I have to listen to carols and such... when my mum is going to spend it in hospital getting chemotherapy...


I'm sorry for bothering everyone with this struggle.