Thread: Motivation
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Old Dec 07, 2018, 10:17 AM
Anonymous55498
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When I truly learned to appreciate and actually started to feel it intensely was becoming an independent investigator, having to get my own grants, responsible for a large team. It is a very flawed system like therapy, but I do tend to feel devastated when I get poor scores on my grants especially (and also, to some extent, on my papers). In part, because I know I am creative, analytical and a good writer. Why do those people give me such *** evaluations/feedback sometimes?
Also, because the scores/grades I get directly affect my independence, perspective, lifestyle and set limitations. If I get bad scores and my grants don't get funded, I won't be able to do the project I dreamed up and am so interested in, and won't be able to do as I please in my lifestyle because I don't have the money for it. That's pretty much about it for me, not very emotional, more practical.

For the students in general, I believe many get reassured and motivated by grades in a similar way people do in therapy. They associate self-worth with that feedback. Maybe, in some cases, because positive feedback was lacking in early life, and they can anticipate negative feedback (grades) because that is what they got mostly and so it feels more familiar.