It's much easier on the outside to see what is going on and when a person crosses over a line called 'manic and irrational'. At the same time, I have lived through the state of mind described by Tryingtobehappy5. Sent the email, feel that any suspicion that I'm not depressed leads to people thinking I am manic and need to be medicated. I think it is very hard to reach people in that state of mind. In the end, i feel better with the med regime I am on than without. My goal now is to make it through life with out another trip to the psych ward. I have found them to be brutal experiences where I live in Canada.


I've had almost the exact train of thoughts. In the end those episodes ended very badly for me. You also might feel better on medication than you do right now. Try to find meds that help you sleep besides sleeping pills. A number of antipsychotics can do that.