I've been in bed since I came home at 1pm. Started call the midwife on Netflix, but stopped on episode 2. Watching the new Mowgali film and totally need to join a pack (of wolves).

This is R's reply:

Dear S,

I hope you are well.

First of all, I'd like to apologise for any confusion you may have felt
regarding last Tuesday. I was surprised that you expected to see me, since
your previous messages indicated the opposite. I did Skype you the previous
Tuesday but since you did not answer, I took that as an indication you were
serious this time about not wanting to see me.

I regret that communications between us have broken down to such an extent that we both feel confused about exactly where we stand with each other and acknowledge my role in that. I'm sorry for not having responded to your emails as frequently as you would have liked.

I accept your needs in relation to the therapy, including any dependency
issues you may have. I understand that as your anxiety increases, Your
feeling that I am smothering you increases along with your desire to break
away from me.

The matter is complicated by a need I think you have to maintain an
appearance of togetherness, even though the material you are attempting to
work through can actually feel quite fragmented at times. There are many
different aspects to your personality but I will always view you as one
person who deserves my empathy.

In terms of moving forward, I'd like to keep working with you. I'd think we
would need to agree a written contract so we both have a reference point we
can return to if either one of us steps over a boundary. We would need to
talk about the nature of such a contract in a session.

Please let me know if you would like to see me on Tuesday.

Best regards,

R