Thank you T for being a part of my life even though you are no longer on earth. I once again got stuck in that place of feeling like I wish I was dead and that once my youngest is out of school next year they will no longer need me. Emdr T and and I discussed it and she said some helpful things then I heard your voice reminding me that my kids will always need me just as I still need my mom. My mom fought to stay alive. If I were to take my life my kids will likely feel like they were not important enough to live for. So they would feel like I do since being abandoned by my dad. I know you and and your wisdom will always be with me. I just wish it weren't so painful.

It also helps knowing that pdoc is back at work and seeing people. Losing my 2 major supporters (from a processional standpoint) in one year would having been horrific

Very thankful for you and Emdr T.

Still trying to figure out if I should write that published article like I have been asked??