"I have a strange overconfidence and have a hard time staying realistic.

Does this sound like mania? I don't really know if it's something that I will naturally get a handle on, or if I need a medication change. I am afraid of being "drugged up." I hate that over-medicated feeling. I enjoy the rush, but I have some awareness that this isn't going to end very well, but I feel relentless and unstoppable. "

I also get these obsessive fixations and similar feelings of overconfidence and have to take APs to make sure I sleep if that gets disrupted. For me the key to staying sane is to stay on top of my sleep schedule. I have spun out of control so many times in the past.

These little thoughts can creep up on me and assume true obsessions, then I become full on delusional. It's a slippery slope.