Sorry you're dealing with something similar...One of the topics we discussed today is whether the pain and turmoil I experience as times as part of the therapy are worth it. Is it ultimately helping me, a means to an end? Or is it just causing me more misery at times? I am making some progress (both he and I confirm this), but, like, at what cost? As I mentioned in session today, I think I tend to drink more on days that I have therapy than any other day of the week. And I was awake for a while last night thinking about things with T--had I not talked about what I did in session yesterday, I could have had a good night's sleep (well, aside from my D waking me up a couple times...)

I ended up deciding to just see him Wed. of next week (instead of Mon. and Thurs.), then regular schedule the week after, because of the holidays coming up (which is a stressful time for me). I imagine I'll only see him once a week during the actual holidays, too (he'll be in town and working some days each week). And this is a bad time of year to look for new T...

Feel free to PM me, too, if you want to discuss more.