Thanks everyone for all your responses. I am glad I am not the only one. I am not sure what I am thinking about when it happens, I am just getting blindly into my car, and it is like the tears come. Today that didn't happen, but I have been feeling a bit better.

Dianah, I think you are right, my T represents a safe place to show my emotion, so maybe that is it.

Twinks, I also learned not to cry for the same reasons as you. I just couldn't cry in front of my old T, until he made me very upset one time and another was time I didn't have my guard up. But with my new T, I cried on the first visit, and that was because I missed my old T. We EMDR processed that one for a good 6 mo., now I am in a better place.

Now I cry like a freak! lol almost every session. Today was a tough one, we are going full force since next week is spring break and I don't need to be as functional. He found a new way to have me feel safe while doing EMDR, and it worked.
One thing I noticed too today is that memories and images come up more readily with my eyes closed, it works TOO well. Maybe keeping my eyes open, is a way to defend myself from the memories. I don't know.

Today even me missing my Dad who died in 1999 came up, after an EMDR set, I suddenly missed my dad and wanted him to hold me, not that he ever did though.

I guess right now I am just feeling numb. But that is also a self defense mech. of PTSD, My T said I might have nightmares or flashbacks tonight.

I just want to heal, I need my T, but I don't feel obsessed with him like my old T, I focus more on my issues instead of thinking of my T. I almost think erotic transference is a defense mech. against going to the hard parts of what you need to work on. Because now I am more focused on healing instead of laying around daydreaming of my T. Thank goodness that is over.