I'm so sorry you're struggling, Aimless Soul Please don't talk that way about yourself. You're not embarassing and you're not immature. You're fightning and trying your best every single day. That means you're the opposite of a weak and fragile person. Please don't give up. Things can get better, and they will if you just keep fightning like you're doing now. Remember that we're here and we won't shame you or judge you. Feel free to share and vent here. We'll listen to what you have to say. We care about you. Do you see a therapist? I'm so sorry you have to deal with this