Really not sure if my feelings are correct but that is what came up so I am going with that.
T asked me if I wanted to be this way for the rest of my life.
He said instead of soothing the inner child that get triggered by doing things like taking a bath, curling up under a blanket and watching TV, drinking hot chocolate or eating a lollipop I need to go do adult things like cooking because doing the other things will just make me feel like more of a child.
All day long I am doing adult things like running my business, food shopping, planning dinner, going to clients...... how much more adult can I get? When I get triggered it is hard to continue adulting and I can't make quality executive decisions so I need to do self soothing.
His behavior yesterday makes me think he is annoyed that his 8 months of modalities has not fully fixed me. IDK I think I am way better then what I was when I came in. I am not sure how much more of therapy is going to make me like life and living. Life is hard and living sucks. It is just a fact.
He said everyone has the same issues as I do. EVERYONE. We all have parts like I have. They are just emotions, just a chemical in the body. I stay longer in them than the average. So I guess he is saying I do not return to baseline as fast as the average population. So I guess he is saying I need to distract but with more adult style activities.
Perfect. I am cured now and no longer need his services. He should go on talk shows with that.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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