Hey Nowhere, I can Relate...when you said..."its hard building communication with her... some days are much easier than others.... but she is a slide again and i worry she wont come back up.."

It's like that on a day to day basis with my mom to.

I keep my mom doing as much as she can...If I do too much for her
she become's so Dam Dependent on me. I actually have to put up this front where I make beleive I can't or wont do it for her.

I'm sorry you feel Like the "Black sheep" of the family. I Don't
have any siblings coming by for me, so it is only me. That makes
me angry, depressed, Dark, that is falls all on my shoulders.

But this is your post, so I will Pray you have a better day tomorrow...

My mom is up and down and all over the place...She can't decide
from one minute to the next!!

Nowhere I know its not you...so don't let her make you feel like
you have failed her.....Please I do that alot and it makes me feel so angry, so disappointed...hang in there my friend...

Hopefully better days are coming for both of us...???

peace to you and a quiet night...Don't beat your self up!!