Seeker33, I used to have schizoaffective symptoms. I believed the devil was in me and Jesus was his brother. I was way messed up with fear and psychosis. This was 20 years ago. I prayed a lot but felt like nobody who cared was listening. Totally felt lost.

Today I'm still on lithium for my mood swings but my doctor and I have reduced my Abilify from 30mg to 5mg. I feel whole, my mind is clear and I am not scared anymore. And further, I know the truth about life. I'm back to normal, with a better view on my spirituality than ever.

And I'll tell you, I don't know what I can say and what I can't say here on the forum. But I imagine I can't say much, or else this whole message may get edited/deleted. Your name is "seeker", and that's such an honest name for what you are doing. You're seeking the truth. God will honor that, believe me. Pray to God for his revelation of who he is. He loves you, He knows you, He is drawing you near to him.

I'm living proof that God heals. God bless!!