We're having a birthday party for my daughter today since her birthday is next Friday. Seven pre-teen girls...I can hardly wait. I will be glad once this party is over. Parties (even for my daughter's birthday) are just not my thing. I don't like being around so many extra people, and I know some of these girls have moms who will stay through the whole party. And about half of them have to get dropped off an hour early, at least one leaving an hour late.

I slept in today, have not even showered, and the cake will be ready for pick-up in half an hour, and I need to get balloons too.

I have a pounding headache. I'm anxious because I couldn't exercise. I feel rushed for time. I don't want to have to socialize with other moms or deal with this party for 3 or 4 hours, wish I could go into a time warp. I know it's important to my daughter, and she does have good friends, and I was worried before she started school because she wouldn’t play with other kids her age. Even in kindergarten, her teacher called me several times because all she did at recess was stand to the side and cry. But in 1st grade, she finally started playing with other kids and making friends.

Still. I hate kid birthday parties. Though I should be grateful. By next year, it will probably turn into a slumber party.

Very anxious and on edge this morning though. However, the increase in Seroquel may be helping as normally, I'd be angry and irritable besides manicky, and I am not, at least not yet.