I think the funk I was in is ending. Even though I still can’t sleep, my appetite is better and I’m listening to my podcast again. And my mood has been better with the trazodone on board. It helps me sleep. Even though last night I took it and couldn’t fall asleep until 12:30am but I could sleep in today so it’s not that big of a deal. Slept until 8:30 so got about eight hours still.

I’m taking my son to see the grinch movie today. That should be fun. He’s wanted to see it since it came out but we haven’t had time. I really need to get some cleaning done but I can take a couple of hours and see a movie with him. Should be a cute movie too.

RS is coming over tonight. I’m so excited. He is so sweet to me. I just hope it’s genuine and it lasts. My ex was sweet in the beginning but it quickly went away. But I just feel differently about RS. I can’t describe it but I just have this feeling it’s going to last a long time. I feel the same about him as I did when I first met my husband. And when I met my ex I was high as hell so that was clouding my judgement. I’m stable for the most part right now. I’m seeing things through a normal lens. I’m just really excited. RS is going to come to New Years at my sister in law’s with me. It’ll be so nice to have someone to share the holidays with! It’s been four years.

I wish it wasn’t so cold here. I hate the cold!