I'm so sorry you're struggling, tecomsin Please don't be too harsh on yourself. Anyone can make mistakes. What matters is that we're able to recognize them and learn from them. Not to mention it's understandable you would not act like yourself when you're not feeling stable. Try not to beat yourself up too much. You're a wonderful person, I'm sure of that, and I'm always happy when I see your kind and helpful posts here on PC. I'm sure many others are grateful for your presence here as well. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this