</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
MzJelloFluff said:
... it's sad when we disover that we're not as "in control" and cool as we thought. (at least for me)

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">
Yes! I like to THINK I'm in control. :-)
</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>

they don't seem related to the character of your T... meaning, her responses and actions seem to be read to you as having avoided triggers successfully, so where do those triggers come from?

Who made you feel like you were being "made" to ask for such a simple thing? Who withheld what is taken for granted?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">

I don't know. But you gals have recognized this in other posts I've made. I don't seem to be able to see it myself. I just can't seem to grasp that I am worth spending time on, that my needs or wants are important. I don't know where I learned this, but it is obviously deeply embedded.

</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
lots of people aren't offered earlier appts, even if they really obviously need them... and not because the t wants to make them ask... and in lots of cases that thought wouldn't enter either of their heads... because it isn't their issue.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">
Soo.... in my statement I am assuming that my T doesn't want to work with me and will only do so if I directly ask for her attention. Is this perspective really unique? Do most people ask freely for additional appointments without worrying about if you really "need" them or if your T will think that you are being too needy?

I know this issue was raised in another thread: Is the want or need for good conversation enough to warrant a T's attention? Obviously, I haven't been able to solve this conflict/ distortion of reality.

I feel like a burden when I ask for something. Jello I understand your statement regarding the character of my T. She doesn't seem to be treating me like a burden; therefore me feeling like one is coming from some where else (....transference/projection).

</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
Recognize that she isn't a mind reader tho k?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">
No, no, no you are wrong MY T is a mind reader! :-)

I still have some work to.