I found this and since there a few others going through this, I thought I would share.

I am still trying to figure out what is "normal" when it comes to the death of a therapist. I could have written this article. Reading through I found the only thing that was different for me is that my T didnt die of cancer

The death of a therapist, coach or mentor - how to cope. - Karin Sieger : Therapist & Writer