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Old Dec 09, 2018, 10:59 AM
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Originally Posted by raging vortex View Post
I really, really, really, hate gloves


I hate the feel of them, I hate the sound of them, and I hate that they remind me so much of abuse


I say this because I had a really bad flashback last night to one of my old abusers and he was wearing ****ing gloves


I know I'm ranting about it, but it really, really irks me- when it ends and i'm shaking- well, something was- and I'm pretty sure that my shoulders and legs left my body to have their own little disco on the edge of a ****ing snowstorm


it was a hard night for me, and hard for me to remember all that abuse. I know that I probably need to get ridd of all the gloves I can find and ****ing burn them


going to the bathroom at 1 A.M was the thing that saved me. realised where I was and started to relax a little. I'm safe, warm and okay


so far today is going so slow

it's 10 A.M, and ffeels even earlier. it's a weird feeling


I'm sorry that you had to go through that
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Diagnosis:
Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type
PTSD
Social Anxiety Disorder
Anorexia Binge/Purge type
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