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It's none of my business and you sure don't have to answer. It's just something to think about. Do you have any plans for your future, Sweety? You have too much on the ball to stay stuck in a hick town for the rest of your life.

You need something to do, friends, etc. Your mom would have driven completely whacko by now.



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Thats just it. I DID have an ok life in the city.. ok, I might not have been working, because I was too messed up via my issues to commit to a full time job, mostly because of anxiety/chronic insomnia/inability to handle a work environment... but when I was in the city, i at least got to go out once in a while, had friends to visit, had friends visit me.. and I got to choose when I wanted to be alone, rather than feeling like I am forced to be alone. Does that make any sense? And, too, I was planning on going through vocational rehabilitation at some point if I could find daycare for bubs. Which is another point, in this town, there wouldn't be any daycare, and I certainly am not leaving the baby with my mother, its just not an option. even if I did, there is no work around here that I can do anyways. My skills are all in call centers and offices, which are few and far between around here. I can't do anything manual or labourish(made up a word there) because of my back.

On top of that I was planning on going back to school part time to take the first of my psychology courses. But, now, I am like an hour and a half away from any college/uni/ect that I could do that from, and I can't afford it anyways. Im not entirely sure I could have afforded it anyways to be honest, but at least I was able to work towards it in the city.

Too, in the city, I was able to go to museums, talks, lectures, interesting exhibits, or just hang around downtown on nice days.

I know and realize I moved home for a very good reason, I couldnt have made it on my own with the ex being the way he was, and couldnt have made it on my own in an apartment. It just wouldnt have been able to fly, not right now. in order to take care of bubs I had to move back.

Not that i resent the baby for any of this if it sounds like I do. I moreso resent the ex for not being able to step up and do the responsible thing for at least when I was pregnant and first getting set up. If it wasnt for him I wouldnt have had to move in the first place.