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I've gotten up, cried a bit like I have been doing for a few days and what seems to be my winter days for me... but did put dishes away. Didn't cry much either ((yay!)). My ex wanted to go to a few stores today, told him yesterday I'd go with him. I am looking forward to one store.
Been Obsessing a bit in my head, over upcoming medical Bills. I can see them generating on my insurance.
This is one thing added to lists of stress-- been"worried " about my urgent care bill from November due to a cyst I couldn't handle any more... and along with current doctor appointments going on..

I forget this year I signed up for HSA.. I just checked my HSA plan have enough to pay the urgent care bill at least. this makes me feel so relieved...

Decades of avoiding doctors because of a handful of reasons but also -- payment... was right on that line of I didn't make enough to really live, but I made enough that I couldn't get much help...((if I would have had a kid, I'd gotten help but no.. I couldn't do that for many reasons))....****** place to be and I sometimes thinks it's done on purpose ((like not personal but a "bigger plan"))).. any ways

Admittedly with other things this has been on my list of worry and be sure to not forget .

I've had an outbreak on my skin again, though another "this is life". I see general doctor tomorrow I am going to ask ... because this is fairly regular for me.. I saw an topical that I am wondering about... I am split in pills for this, like anything.

I never knew about these HSA plans before this employer, and my coworker friend explained to me what it was an how i could use it... I am glad right now I took his advice..