I was level for 2 days in a row, now i feel like I am losing it again. I can't think straight. I want this to pass. I feel very down but i dont want my family to know. I dont want them to know how unstable I am right now. I wish i could fade away right now. Everything makes me cry. I need to get out of this state of mind. I have others to care for and I dont want people who do not understand depression to know. When you are bipolar it is not always situational. The meds i take now already make my stomach upset , I dont want any more meds. I hate having so many meds around, I feel like a pharamacy. I don't want pills around now but I have no choice.

Leslie