I relate to the finance worries.

maybe not lones (I don't do lones), but certainly being able to pay for everything

I don't work so I don't get massive amounts of money, yet what I do get has to go on groceries, my tv service, other bills (electricity etc), and I still need to find some money to treat myself

what's worse is when I'm mannic I spend the money I don't have which makes the situation worse