it's been a year and a half since i had my break down and i could no longer take care of my 4 children that i love tremendously, so now their father is taking care of them. i finally got the nerve to call the in laws and said that things are better now with the kids and confirmed that i made a good decision. i am greatful that they are there. they are a big family and everyone helps eachother out, and they tell me not to feel burdened because they know that i've done a great job on being a responsable parent but knew that i had a hard time with my depressions and anxieties. so now i'm waiting for a phone call from the kids. i'm scared and nervous yet excited