This all rings such a painful "bell" for me. My t. sent me a letter 2 days before my next weekly appt. that his practice was closed and he was sorry. He included a generic list of other t's. I cannot begin to describe the suffering it caused me. Also, the repercussions of it have impacted my relationship w/my present. t. He has been soooo caring & patient w/me. He knew from the start that trust was going to be a HUGE issue with me.
He has told me several times that unless a t. has something unpredictable happen like an accident etc., that sudden termination is considered "highly unethical" and that a t. could potentially lose their license over it. He said they spend A LOT OF TIME in training learning about how serious the consequences are for the client. It is a BIG DEAL. He said that usually t's know or sense when either personal problems or conflicts with the client arise. It is their "ethical duty" to adress it ASAP. If they see a termination coming, they MUST discuss it with the client and slowly prepare them.
I just want you to know you are not alone. It is extremely upsetting and takes quite a bit if time to get past. Be gentle with yourself. There were times when I actually felt like I was grieving a death. I am sooo lucky to have found a t. who has given me so much space & time to work thru this. I swear I would still be crying about it. I felt so abandoned and worthless.