soooooooooooo i guess that takes away the escape hatch of not calling t when the urges surface.
It is interesting - she was so very serious about my fnding other means to cope. and yet, she nudged a book with her toe called "Cutting" and laughed about how many pages it took to exlain why ppl cut. Then said something like "I'm laughing, making a joke about it, but..." and i really didn't get the jist of what she was saying. Maybe trying to meet me where i was (the court jester about myself) but still get across to me that she means business.
I made the pact. next urge, i'll call her. kiya