Recently I had a relationship that ended and was 90% my fault. Maybe the fact that I have never felt it was all my fault or and the fact that I still love the man, it hurts so much. He also told me the door is closed and he has someone else too. I guess we never really know what we have until it is gone! I wish I had some good advise. If you have not already told him what you told us, I would at least try that. But after that you will have to remember this for furture relationships! Treasure what you have so you dont lose it. Good luck. My heart goes out for you