Had 14 ECT treatments. Didn't work. My boyfriend said do you like going to the doctors and getting all that attention? I should have dumped him right then and there. No I don't like the attention!!!!! I just want to feel Fcking NORMAL!!!! He is nice and kind and understanding 99.9 % of the time but he said it again tonight after I told him I had a cyst under my armpit asking why I'm not going to the doctor cuz it seems to him I go a lot but I don't. When you've had breast cancer you are more aware of your body. I had cyst under my right arm pit and had them removed because they were cancerous. I told him don't joke about this anymore. This is not a funny joke to me. We train people how to treat us. My ex was abusive. I'm trying to get well and fight for my life with this Bipolar depression crap. I'm angry right now and I needed to vent.!!!!!!Thank you to whoever reads or supports me.

Lynn