I know it hurts. I'm still awake because I know that the moment that I try to go asleep, I will start feeling lonely again. It isn't uncommon for me to stay up all night until I'm too tired to feel anything and get by on 3-5 hours of sleep when I work and go to school all because I don't want to cry myself to sleep.

All I would want from a woman at this point is to love and accept me for who I am. I am not picky when it comes to friends or women. I don't care about all of the serious stuff that comes from relationships. I just want to be loved.

As I said, love is what ensures survival. I feel like I am dying a slow and painful death without it. IDK how much longer I can endure of this torture anymore.