Yeah I haven’t been able to sleep for 6 days now because I was abandoned by someone I love. For me, it’s not about being lovable, it’s about loving. Another question I was asked was what behaviors make a relationship hurt and what part of a relationship makes me feel good inside.

I said lying, stonewalling, being abandoned, silent treatment, criticisms, put downs and insults hurt.

I said bring loved, supported, cared about, heard, nurtured,fed all felt good.

At this point in time I feel profoundly damaged. Everyone keeps telling me find someone ekes but I love who I love and I can’t help it. I keep hoping well get back together. I guess I’m pretty desperate but I was engaged so it was no light matter. I don’t know that I could ever love again. I can’t move on. I don’t want to move on. I’m still holding out for hope that things will work out despite my broken heart.