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Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5
I gottw sgut up. Ny kids are gonns be up.and im ****ed. My oldest has been up twicr already up tbey will all be up so soon. Im a horriblr mom thid is why i shouflny evem be a mom i suck. Evertging is spinning znf i cant see. My kifs would be bwtter witg their dad only
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One tries and tries again. Life is a learning Journey
I hope this finds* you well
.. but I can relate to believing everyone is better off with out me ((no kids))
I get told that's not true, that those are distorted thoughts. My ex said and says that he wishes I didn't get the way I am, I too question the bipolar at times, but I am aware something is off, and I understand why I get out "in the box" with the dx.
Idk if it would help but what do you wish you were better with? You mention horrible mom and them better with just their dad. Why? No need to tell me but just a thought. A list of what you wish to change, and how to go about that.
No one is perfect some times we all need some help, some times a small change can be a life changing move.
I hope that's recieved well. I am sorry I just got up but wanted to say keep going, keep trying, and I hope you find some peace as your post seem to indicate your struggling.
I am sorry if I've misinterpreted, after all these are only typed words on a page.