I cannot seem to remember how it started, what happened the first time. I was 6 years old and would go into my brothers room and pretend to sleep. I did this willingly.
He was 12 at the time.
I in therapy and writing my life story. I have several traumatic life events and I am not sure if this even is one. Maybe I put too much weight on it and it was actually nothing. Just remember that I willingly went into the room. I wish that I could remember how it first started because that would answer so much.
Thank you!