I thought I was doing good the last several days....taking my meds...eating better....helping my wife....being "affectionate towards her"...it all seemed good...

then it just happens

you find the inner voice telling you: "you worthless loser why dont you just give up and disappear"

last evening going home it started....chest tightens...shoulders
lock up....tense...nervous...then my 3 year old decides bedtime isnt
until 11 p.m. , so me and mommy start fighting....shes tired and achy from fibromyalgia and CFS....If i cant fix it, I dont know how to help her

now snows falling in March...4-6 inches....

I work alone on Friday, my other employee on works 4 days a week
so im here and I know it will be slow today with the weather

so my mind will wander into the darkness......the cycle never ends....