I'm so sorry you're struggling, leomama Are you still with this person? If you are, hopefully you can talk to him about this and start building a better relationship. Otherwise you can just leave him and start a new one. If you aren't, then I guess you just need to move on. Please don't give up hope though: you can still find the right person for you. It may take a while, but it is possible. You can do it! In the meantime keep working on yourself. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this