I wish I was brave enough to get help. I've been thinking about suicide a lot lately. Even during my birthday I thought about it. I'm scared and keep thinking that I'd never go through with it but when I have a panic attack I'm never sure what will happen. It's not like I can just skip school for a week to get help. ON another subject I think I cut for the first time. I've been thinking about it for awhile but don't remember following through. In the morning I found a shallow cut on me with a fresh scab. I don't remember doing it, which makes me even more concerned. I JUST DON"T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!